I love you care package

So for a little bit now I have been so confused about what Heavenly Father wants me to do for my life. I keep getting put down because I feel like everyone's life is moving on and mine is not. Everyone around me is getting pregnant and starting their families. I feel like I can't start my family until I finish school and that just keeps getting put back. I first can't get into UVU after trying 2 times and getting interviews both times and only to be told NO! I feel like everyone I know gets in and then I don't. Also a lot of people that I know get in are over the age of 30 or are men. I can no longer apply there (UVU)  again  because you can only have 2 interviews in a 5 year period. Then I get into a LPN program and then I can't finish my CNA in time. Then I have to put off nursing school by another year. I will re-apply for the Spring 2013 season and also to Weber State's program. I feel like no one knows what I am going through and I just want a road map of what I am suppose to do..doesn't help that Adam is not here to help we and be able to hug me. Anyway there is my rant of what I have been feeling like lately.

Here is Adam's last care package that I sent him. It only took 7 days to get there this time. It was so AWESOME to get a text at 5am telling me that he got it and that he LOVED IT!

1.Teddy Grahams- BEAR HUGS-he wanted hugs

2. Breakfast on the go

3. Bandaids

4. Air Freshionair

5. Drink Packets for his water bottles

6. Toothbrushes

7. Angry birds fruit snacks

8. Nasal sprays

9. gum

10. ipod arm band

11. I made him Monkey bread in jar. You bake them in the jars and when they come out of the oven you put the lid on and it seals itself. 

12. Icing for the monkey bread. I wanted to send my own icing but it would go bad since it's made with cream cheese.

13. Adam loves the smell of my deodorant, so I sent him a stick of that and a little something, something to remember me by that may also be embarrassing for some.

14. Love letter-a requirement for all care packages.

Adam requested that he wanted hugs and kisses- the hugs you saw earlier and then the kisses I put all over the box.

I found this e-card and printed out and put it in the bottom of the box..I really do wish that I would send myself to me and give him his hugs and kisses.

This what the box looked like after I stuffed it full. I was worried that the jars might break but they didn't. Adam said that the monkey bread was a little dry but it was still good.

I added one last kiss that was not covered in tap, one that he might be able to kiss back.

Adam LOVED the care package! I love you Adam and love that you loved it!